The consequence of that one indulgence was that I couldn’t even get out of bed for three whole days, and I really don’t know what an idiot is supposed to do when faced with such a situation.

But he seemed satisfied with the situation, and often left me so tired that I could only lean on the bed.

When I am extremely tired, I can’t even fall asleep, my nerves are often between wakefulness and unconsciousness, I can hear the outside world, but I just can’t open my eyes, and then it seems like I am being tugged by a strong force to fall into the abyss of unconsciousness.

The sound of conversation is faintly heard in the ears.

“……”

“Young master, the gang master’s place has already urged you several times to go there.” It was Yun Chang’s voice.

Zhong Qing’s voice was right next to my ears, it turned out that he hadn’t gotten up yet, he just held me in his arms and leaned against the bed.”I know,”

“Young Master ……” Yun Chang’s voice was a bit anxious.

“I know, stop talking, you go out first.” The deliberately lowered voice grew impatient.

Hearing the door open and close, Yun Chang went out.

Zhong Qing’s hand tightly held me in his embrace, “What should I do with you?”

And then, because I just couldn’t fight the urge to sleep, I fell back into a deep sleep.

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He went to the Green Gang tonight, it’s been a long time, and he hasn’t come back yet, for some reason, I always have an unsettling premonition.

I was just messing with the model cars on the hall carpet, but my eyes stared at the front door from time to time, could I be waiting for him, no, it can’t be, I won’t admit it.

“Bang!” The front door was pushed open vigorously from the outside, Zhong Qing appeared in the doorway with a frantic look on his face, seeing that I was sitting inside, he rushed to me in a few steps.

As soon as he did, he grabbed me from the carpet and made me face his anger directly.

“Qing, you’re grabbing me so hard it hurts.” I couldn’t help but start struggling.

“You …… Why are you his son, how could you be his son?” His voice shook my ears.

His anger stunned all the people, including Yun Chang (if Zhong Qing wasn’t there, then it must have been Yun Chang who stayed by my side), the servants, and the henchmen, no one had ever seen him outwardly show his emotions like this before, even when he punished me in the beginning it was just a grim expression, but this was the first time he had ever lashed out with a complete lack of control over his emotions like this.

Yun Chang came up and tried to stop him, but Zhong Qing waved his hand, “All of you stay out of it!” All of them had to follow his orders and froze on the spot.

He grabbed my arm tightly and brought me towards the upstairs bedroom.

“It hurts, you’re hurting me, Green. Oo……” This is too dangerous, what’s wrong with him? I went out of my way to fake cry to gain his sympathy, but this weapon that used to be unbeatable was now surprisingly useless.

I grabbed at everything I saw along the way, I just wouldn’t let him take me to the bedroom, but he broke me off one finger at a time, one finger at a time.

I tried to ask the others for help, but all they could do was look at me helplessly.

Finally he took me to the bedroom and I was so exhausted that I was dumped hard on the bed.

He fell on top of me with a single bound, and at once I was so crushed that I couldn’t catch my breath and was coughing hard there.

He tightened his grip on my neck, “Why, why are you his son?”

What the hell is he talking about?

Whose son? Whose son am I?

“Qing, let go of me, I feel so bad. Cough …… cough cough ……” I can’t pronounce these questions.

He did make me hurt so much that tears just couldn’t be controlled in my eyes.

He saw my look of enduring pain, gradually calmed down, and then a rolled over to lie beside me, and then with both hands to hold his head, and viciously pulling his hair, muttering under his breath, “How could this be, why is it like this? …… How could you be his son, how could you be his son?”

What the hell is he talking about? I know he came back from the Green Gang, did he know something in the Green Gang? And it’s about me? Right, mom was invited to the youth gang, did she tell him something?

What’s going on? I’m going crazy with questions, but I can’t ask anything and I can’t show it, it’s so annoying.

Besides, the way he is today reminds me of the pain he inflicted on me that day, and this negativity of his directly affects me as well.

This kind of him made me avoid him, I slowly raised my upper body and moved back, then gently got off the bed, just as the door of the room was just a hand’s length away from me, I was ripped down by a strong force and fell heavily on my back on the floor.

It was Zhong Qing, his bruised face was really much more horrifying, “Where do you think you’re going? Don’t go, do you know that I was about to forgive you, I was about to decide to give up on revenge. But why are you his son?”

His hands were frantically stripping me of my clothes, and my resistance just wasn’t enough in his eyes. “Why, of all people, are you his son? Why?”

“Don’t, uh…… don’t, it hurts, Green, I’m not playing with you anymore, you’re hurting me.” I still remembered my identity. The struggle at the beginning had used up all my strength, and by now it did seem a bit overwhelming.

I kicked my feet hard, he was careless and got kicked in the face, by this time he could not control himself at all, seeing that I was still resisting, he punched me in the stomach, I felt a huge pain, I immediately lost all my strength, I only thought about how to ease the pain, and shrunk my whole body together, and tried to suppress the desire to vomit.

In less than three minutes, I was already naked underneath him, he jumped on top of me and kissed and bit me, his teeth were very sharp, under his attack, a lot of teeth marks immediately appeared on my body, most of them had already oozed blood, which always brought me back to that day when I was raped by him, and now what he was doing to me was so strikingly similar to that day that I couldn’t tell if it was a reality or a memory, and I was in a state of Confusion.

“Don’t, let go of me, don’t …… I don’t want it!” Don’t let what happened that day happen again, don’t let me suffer the humiliation of being raped again, don’t let me feel the pain of being torn apart again, don’t ……

“Don’t, Zhongqing!” After shouting, only then reacted to the fact that I called his name, crap …… because he never told me his full name, he just let me call him Qing.

Sure enough, his movements jerked to a standstill. The head buried on my chest gradually lifted up, and the light shining in his eyes chilled me from the inside.

“What did you just call me?” The voice felt like it was rising from a cellar of ice, and sure enough, he noticed after all.

Not being able to fight his gaze at all, I looked away. He’d found out anyway, and it was actually amazing to me that I’d been able to fool him up to this point, because he wouldn’t send me away, so it was only a matter of time before he wore a bang, but God, don’t let him find out at this point, ah.

His clamped my jaws with both fingers, pinning my head back, directly in his face, his tone cold, “Say, are you not sick, you’re faking it, aren’t you?” His eyes were so sharp, seeing directly into my heart, I had nothing to hide under his sight, then of course he was able to detect my weakness.

He slapped me so hard that the taste of blood flooded my mouth and the sky swirled before my eyes, and all I could hear was his roar.

“You tricked me, you’re not even crazy, how dare you?” He mounted me and started beating me violently.

I was powerless to resist at all, all I knew was to wrap my hands around my head, the process between the unbearable pain at the beginning and the numbness that followed made me want to die instantly.

I don’t remember when the violent beating stopped or when he left my body, when I woke up, I realized that I had fainted, even if I used my hands to protect my face, but probably after passing out, I still couldn’t block his punches, my face was in unbearable pain, and my eyes were swollen to the point that they could only be opened by a thread, and the corners of my mouth were already cracked open.

But none of that compared to the pain in my chest, it was too much to bear and I only rolled over onto my side and curled up as much as I could.

He pulled my hair with force and pulled me to the edge of the couch, letting me fall to the floor completely naked, he sat down, his mouth gasping for air, “How dare you lie to me, how dare you lie to me!”

For him now even if I say anything he won’t listen, so I only keep my mouth shut.

“Do you think it’s fun to trick me, watching me in front of you like a clown to please you.”

“No, it’s not like that ……” I desperately wanted to defend myself and as soon as I opened my mouth, the wound around my mouth made it so that I could only keep sucking in air.

“Shut up!” He didn’t even want to hear what I had to say.

The only reason I’m pretending to be crazy is because you’re taking me to Phantasmagoria.

“Do you know that I was actually a little happy to see you break down, yes, I like you, but how can I like someone who killed my mother?” He spoke with a sobbing voice.

I couldn’t really agree with the accusation of a murderer that he made, but it also showed that he had an extraordinary bond with his mother.

“So in knowing that you’ve broken down, I think I can choose to start over. You forget everything that happened before, your intelligence deteriorates to 5 or 6 years old, that means you won’t remember everything I did to you, you won’t look at me with fear, you won’t hate me, you’ll only be able to rely on me, you’ll only be able to center yourself around me. And I can pretend like that didn’t happen and have you forever and we can be together forever.” The look in his eyes had a bit of a crazy undertone to it.

At this point, what can I say? Only to listen, I wanted to know the cause and effect of all this, to know why he lost control of himself today, and well, he seemed to want to fulfill that wish of mine as well.

“On the day my mother died, did you try to run away? Hmph! How could I let you escape? I had already sent someone to follow you.”

I see, that’s why I was caught.

“Originally, I wanted to catch you to perform in the illusion of color, so that I would completely die for you, but you went crazy, and you really made me feel sideways at that time, and you performed really well.” This last one he said through gritted teeth, “To be able to smile sweetly and take my hand and call me an angel was a real eye-opener, but that made me like you even more. I wonder if this isn’t a heavenly turn of events for me. To make me stop taking revenge, it’s driving you crazy anyway, so I can count it as revenge. I don’t care if you turn into an idiot because the way you depend on me makes me feel happy because I still love you, so I just need you to stay by my side in peace, and I can even say that I’m happy that you’re turning into an idiot, it’s the only way that you’ll depend on me.”

I couldn’t get over the pain and started to moan softly.

Why was I moaning out, was I hoping he would come and comfort me? Did I expect him to come and take care of me? And why was I disappointed to see that he didn’t respond in the slightest? Could it be that I had actually gotten my hopes up for him without even realizing it.

But why did it come to this?

He continued, “Why don’t you become a real idiot?”

“If you were an idiot, I could live with you, I could take care of you for the rest of my life, and we would always be together and not separate. I’d take care of your mom as well. Wouldn’t that be nice?”

At this time, I really wished that I was really crazy, really had become an idiot, then I wouldn’t have to suffer this kind of pain. Not only physically, but also in my heart. Seeing his tearless expression, I felt the same.

He calmed down a little, “Do you know who you went to see today?”

How should I know?

“I went to the Green Gang and met with my father, I didn’t think I’d hear a story, a story about you.” He paused, “Did you know? Your mom and my father are old friends.”

What? Impossible, my mom is a lady of the house, how could she be involved with a gangster? Ah, he started coming in and said whose son I am? Did he mean that I am the son of Ho Yat-yen (the leader of the Green Gang, I wonder if you all remember him?) (I don’t know if you remember him)?

He looked at my changing expression and laughed coldly, “Don’t guess, you’re not my brother.”

“But, I’d rather you were my brother,” his voice trailed off.

“Dad called me today just to let me bring you there, but I’m not going to hand you over, you’ll never escape me in this life.” He really looked like he was crazy in this way now.

“Do you know what dad told me? Your father turned out to be my father’s male favorite? Hahaha ……” he laughed madly.

“Bullshit, you fart!” I roared, “You haven’t insulted me enough? You want to insult my father too?”

“Bullshit? I’m not, I heard it from your mother and my father myself.” He interrupted me with a sardonic smile, “I didn’t realize that your father charmed my father and you managed to charm me? Both you father and son are destined to be man’s male favorites.”

“Nonsense, nonsense, shut up! There’s no way my father could be He Riyan’s male favorite, besides you raped me, you forced me!” I hissed.

“Rape? Then who was the one who unleashed himself on me three times yesterday, so good that you couldn’t even get out of bed.”

Unable to hear his filthy words, I shook my head vigorously, as if that would shut out his voice.

My head was already hurting, and this violent shaking instantly made me dizzy.

“You’re bullshitting me, you’re the one who raped me, you’re the one who raped me ……,” I mumbled.

“Is that so?” He laughed sardonically as he moved closer to me, “Well let’s find out now, will you or won’t you.”

Don’t, don’t, are you going to come and rape me again?