LET ME LEAVE（BDSM） - Chapter 6

When I woke up, I didn’t open my eyes and heard two people around me talking in low tones, one of them had Zhong Qing’s voice and the other had an unfamiliar voice.

“He might be suffering from intellectual deterioration because he’s overstimulated and wants to escape reality. I’ll give him a detailed examination when he wakes up.” This unfamiliar voice gave me a great opportunity.

Right, I’m not crazy at all, and I’m not suffering from mental deterioration, I’m just trying to get out of this desperate situation. Since I’m an entertainer, I’ve naturally watched a lot of TV and movies, and I seem to remember that there was a TV show that had a plot where a girl’s intellect degraded to that of her own when she was six years old because she couldn’t take the shock.

If I really want to go for phantom color, then I might as well be an idiot. Idiot he doesn’t know shame and doesn’t have a reaction that seems interesting to them, while Chung Ching probably probably lost a great deal of his thrill of revenge against a fool.

They were still talking about something, I didn’t pay attention to it, only mentally calculating what I should do to make it better, of course thinking most about how a child’s reaction would look like, and doing it in a way that was not revealing and could not be seen as a breakthrough by Chung Ching.

Think I should be awake now, so after a deliberate hmmm also forcefully move eyelids, and then open, sure enough, raised his eyes to see Zhong Qing’s face, and a person in white clothes, they are all very concerned about my reaction, of course, his concern is that if I become stupid, he can’t very well hit me, humiliate me, and he can’t enjoy the thrill of retaliation, this, I won’t get the wrong idea.

I laughed coldly in my heart, but still raised an innocent expression on my face, “Angel? Are you an angel? Are you keeping me company?” I looked down and around, “Mommy, where is it? Where’s my mom?”

I rolled over and sat up, of course when I sat up, I did what a toddler would do when getting up, crawled and rolled to the edge of the bed, stood barefoot on the floor, and pulled his sleeve with both hands, luckily he was still a few centimeters taller than I was, if he was shorter than I was, it would not have been easy for me to put on the show.

“Angel, you promised to help me find my mom, right? Angel, will you help me find my mom?” I forced tears out of my eyes, of course, never having been trained, this would have been a bit difficult, however, as soon as I thought of Zhong Qing’s cruelty, and his means of revenge, the tears could not help but to flow down.

He still looked at me incredulously, and even pulled me to the one who might be a doctor, “Come on, doctor, help him examine him in detail, what’s going on?”

The examination would make me feel scared, I didn’t understand much about medical stuff, and I was worried that he would check out from whatever sophisticated instruments there were that there was nothing wrong with me at all.

I started to wriggle all over, and yelled, “I don’t want the injection, I don’t want the medicine, the injection hurts, hoo hoo.” I also made blowing motions in my mouth, “The medicine is also bitter, I don’t want it, I don’t want it.”

Maybe it was my devoted performance that made him more or less believe a few points, Zhongqing let go of my hand, I rushed to the other side of the bed, the corner of the room all shrunken into a ball, sitting on the floor.

Muttering “Don’t, don’t” I listened to their words in my ears.

“Looks like a real overstimulation, Mr. Chung!” Fortunately the doctor made that judgment.

“So, is this temporary?” Temporary? Hmph, if you don’t let me go, I’ll do it permanently.

“Brain problems are the worst to judge because we don’t know what caused him to be like this. And it’s still a puzzle as to what exactly should be done to cure it. How about this, his mind may not be too stable, so I’d better prescribe him some medicine to calm his mind and see what happens later.” The doctor was a bit uncertain.

“Good, that’s it then, thank you doctor!” Zhongqing sent the doctor out.

I breathed a sigh of relief, I might have fooled him.

But mom is still at his place? What should I do?

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Seeing that I had broken down, he didn’t come back to make things difficult for me, and hired a nurse lady to come and take care of me specifically, he didn’t come over for the last few days, without him in front of me, I didn’t have to work so hard on my acting, I could sit there all day long, only pretending to act that way when there was someone there, but the people he hired probably didn’t like children, of course, I couldn’t be considered a child, I was a moron to them and therefore they like to shut me up in my room, which is just what I like.

Listening to the nurse and the maid chatting privately, I knew that he was busy with his mother’s funeral these days, and he had organized it in a very elegant way. Of course, given his position today, it’s impossible to keep things simple.

It’s best if he doesn’t come, but seeing that I’ve turned into an idiot, why doesn’t he let me go and hire someone to look after me? Could it be that he still wants to cure me and torture me again? This I can’t help but admire his patience.

His mother’s funeral was fully followed by the media, I was playing with the toys on my hands while squinting at the TV footage, luckily the nurse lady was also a fan of his, so I was able to get an instant update on him as well.

On the TV interview, he was in a bad state, in fact, I had already learned that he had a strong bond with his mother, or else he wouldn’t have gotten me into this situation. But when I saw the funeral scene, I really felt guilty. Although I didn’t kill Bo Ren, Bo Ren died because of me. I can accept him beating me and even killing me, but he can’t humiliate me like this.

Tears could no longer be controlled, I slashed the antenna of the car on my hand hard on my palm, blood quickly gushed out, I cried out, “Sister, my hand is bleeding,”

The nurse lady rushed to the room to get the first aid kit in a hurry because it made her miss the shot, she did not call it gentle at all, she grabbed my hand and wrapped it with a bandage. It was wrapped tightly and it hurt, but I didn’t care so I could get my tears right.

“Don’t cry, good boy, it won’t hurt anymore in a while.” Although her expression didn’t mean to comfort me at all, the least bit of dedication was there.

I didn’t need her comforting either, I just wanted to cry without arousing suspicion.

“Mr. Nakamura, may I ask what’s next for you?” The sound on the TV was turned up.

“Because of my mother’s illness and death, I’m not in much of a mood, and besides it just so happens that my movie has already wrapped, I’d like to take some time off, so I’ll make my plans then.” 电视里的仲青满脸的疲惫，眉宇间也刻着抹之不去的悲伤。

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Since Zhong Qing suspended his work, he has been staying in this villa.

With him around, I was much more nervous and always had to remind myself that I must not wear a bang. He was very strange, he stayed by my side every day, even if I was being irrational or not, he would use great patience to coax me, which made me very anxious, I didn’t understand what exactly he was thinking.

In the past few days, I pestered him every day to find my mom, and every time, he would hug me and murmur, “Do you want to leave me too? Don’t you want to be around me too?”

Being in his arms made it very difficult for me, and from the bottom of my heart, I had an urge to push him far away, but to my chagrin I couldn’t, because my intelligence had already deteriorated into that of a toddler, and toddlers love to be hugged and valued, hopefully, he hadn’t noticed that my whole body stiffened every time he hugged me.

But he’s also ambivalent about me, I can feel it in his attitude, one moment he’s full of joy playing with me, and then a moment later he pushes me away hard to hide in the den. If he hadn’t ever treated me that way, I would have thought he was in love with me, but I knew that wasn’t possible. This erratic nature of his makes it twice as hard for me too. It’s making me have to wonder how to deal with him in a manner befitting a child.

Why hasn’t he gotten annoyed yet, if this keeps up, I’m really going to be an idiot.

I threw the robots in my hands in an annoyed fumble and threw them on the TV stand, making a loud noise. Zhong Qing walked out of the study and pulled me over to the sofa and sat down, then held me on his lap, which he had been enjoying doing lately.

He softly said, “Xiao You, what’s wrong?”

Sometimes his gentleness really makes me feel touched, at this moment he’s giving me the feeling as if I’m someone important to him, I’ve even considered the idea that he might have forgiven me, that maybe if I tell him the truth he’ll let me off the hook, a thought that keeps nagging at me, but then I’m afraid that maybe it’s nothing more than a disguise on his part.

I can’t blame me for thinking this way, because if I hadn’t experienced that kind of pain myself, I wouldn’t have believed that a man like him would do something so cruel and come up with such a vicious trick.

I could see my reflection in his eyes, the look of an aggrieved, pathetic man, and I flattened my lips and said, very quietly, “I want my mommy.”

He sighed and hugged me hard and tight again, burying his head in the crook of my neck and taking a deep breath before looking up again and saying, “Don’t you like me a lot? Stay with me, okay? We’ll go look for your mom in a few days, okay?”

Who likes you? I cursed in my mind, but acted like I was still nodding on purpose, “Well, you’re a good looking angel, and my mom said that angels are good people, so I like you, but I don’t like you anymore if you don’t help me find my mom.”

I twisted around to get off of him and his arms tightened to hold me back, I hit his chest hard and let out a deliberate cry of pain, “That hurts.”

He panicked to help me look left and right, to see where I hit the pain, I looked at him the way the feeling that flooded my heart is very strange, there is a little bit of joy, but also a little bit of sour.

I couldn’t distinguish the feeling at all, so I fought my way out of his embrace and ran away as if I was going to play.

Because the doctor had already diagnosed me with temporary mental deterioration, so Zhong Qing didn’t ask the bodyguards to keep an eye on me to prevent me from going out of the gate of the villa, but I knew that I couldn’t escape, not to mention the fact that the forest around me made it hard for me to find my way around and the nurses had to come to let me take my medication every once in a while, so in terms of time it was impossible for me to run away, and what’s more was that my mom was still in their hands.

I could stay in the garden outside the villa for a while and wait for the nurse to call me in. I didn’t know if anyone was watching me in the dark so even in the garden I couldn’t afford to be careless, I deliberately rolled around in the grass and laughed loudly until I thought I had enough before I stopped and lay there with my eyes closed to think about things.

The sound of footsteps came to my ears, rustling on the grass, I didn’t want to open my eyes, the footsteps stopped beside me, I felt him leaning over and sitting down on my side, I knew it was Zhong Qing, but I was tired of acting, I didn’t want to face him any more, I cried out in my heart, please leave me alone, leave me alone for a while.

Suddenly there was the feeling of a hand on my face, gently, stroking over my eyebrows, eyes, mouth, and finally stopping on my forehead.

I did my best to relax myself, to restrain the urge to blink my eyelids, I knew he was watching me.

But I didn’t want to face him, worried that sooner or later he would find out, so I only pretended to be asleep. He sat beside me for a long time, I didn’t know what he was doing and I didn’t want to care, gradually I was really close to falling asleep.

He probably thought I was already asleep, and actually started talking to himself. “Xiao Yao, I like you, I really like you!”

As soon as I heard this, all my sleepiness flew away all of a sudden, and my heart jumped vigorously, no way, how could he possibly like me, if he did why would he do that to me?

He continued, “Since the first time you appeared in front of me, you caught my attention, although your appearance seems to give a feeling that it is hard to get close to you, but I know you are very gentle, I remember when I saw you helping an old beggar to cross the road outside of the set, at that time, you made me feel very curious, why can you be so nice and gentle to a dirty, annoying beggar, even still smiled at him. And yet be so unforgiving to me, the person everyone else has to do their best to please? When you look at me, you probably never really see me as a star, and you never try to please me like other reporters, although you do the same job as other paparazzi, but you just give me a different feeling, as if you are very distracted, and you leave as soon as you get the information you want every time, and you don’t stay for a moment longer, so this kind of you really makes me fall in love with you.”

What? When was that? I didn’t feel it. I searched my mind for a while, when exactly did I help a beggar? Can’t remember.

“I never knew I was gay until I met you. Seeing your concentration when you tried so hard to interview me, seeing your satisfaction when you heard me answering your questions, it really made me want to hold you in my arms. Do you know that the first time I was interviewed exclusively by you in the lounge, it actually gave me an erection. It really threw me off, and even though I helped my father manage a gay club, I never thought I would one day fall in love with a man, and not a good looking one at that.” He laughed softly at that.

“To make sure of this feeling, but not wanting my mother to know, I purposely went to a notorious pub to find a cowboy, but out of all the cowboys, I picked one who looked a bit like you.”

Ah, that shouldn’t have been the one I photographed, right? Was I the one who started all this?

“In fact, I already knew the result when I brought him to the apartment, so I didn’t do anything at all and just wrote him a check to let him go, but it was just this one time that you took the picture, although the report you wrote was very subtle, but my mom is always a bit paranoid, and she was afraid that I would run into some dirty things in the entertainment industry when I was about to enter the entertainment industry, so she grabbed me every day to ask me when she read this report, and she warned me every day that I can’t fall into a man’s hands, just like my father did,. fall into the hands of men, no matter how much I explained I didn’t listen, and in the end I even got a heart attack.”

Speaking here, he let out a long sigh. Lightly caressing my hair, surprisingly stopped coming.

Hearing this, isn’t that to whet my appetite? It’s like there’s a piece of meat in front of me and I can’t reach it, so it’s going to kill me. Go on, go on, tell me the truth. I want to know the truth.

I really wanted to jump up, but I held back, even though my heart itched like a cat was scratching it. But even if it itches to death, I can’t mess myself up. But, to be honest, I didn’t really expect him to like me? Huh? Was I happy in my heart? Got it wrong, definitely got it wrong.

I really couldn’t pretend anymore, I was afraid that I would be discovered by him that my heart was beating faster and faster, so I intentionally hmmm’d, and also stretched greatly before opening my eyes, and sure enough, I saw that he was looking at me with a gentle face, and at that moment, my heart jumped greatly again, giving me a shock.

He reached over and caressed my face, ”Woke up? Come on, let’s go inside.” He pulled me up and led me towards the big house.