LET ME LEAVE（BDSM） - Chapter 9

I forced myself to endure the pain in my body, crawling to escape from the side of this already crazy man, “Don’t, don’t come over, Zhongqing, don’t ……”

“Yes, why not?” He spoke with sarcasm, “To let you see for yourself whether it’s me raping you or not ah.”

He grabbed my ankles, I kicked hard out of nowhere, he tsked and found a tie to tie my feet together.

“No, let go of me, let go of me, do you hear me? Let go of me.” Hands kept slapping at his outstretched hands and were tied again as he locked them in a one-handed hold.

He pressed my legs straight up and then invaded right in, one to the end.

“It hurts ……” Half of the pain was due to the pain of having my back hole ripped apart without lubrication, even though my asshole has already been developed by now, pushing in without lubrication is still a painful thing for me, the other half of the pain was due to the fact that my legs were folded over and pressed directly onto my chest, for my body that can’t be called soft, doing this high level of penetration is not a good idea at all. For my body which is not soft at all, doing this kind of difficult movement is a very difficult and painful thing.

“Hoo…… hoo, uh…… well…… it hurts.” I was already sweating profusely from the pain.

Suddenly a sharp pain hit me, not in my posterior, not in my legs, but in my back. “It hurts, it really hurts, ah……” I screamed. Because my body wasn’t speared soft enough, I bent my back when easing the pressure on my legs, who knew that this caused all the pressure to be placed on one of the bones in my spine, and suddenly the pain was so great that I couldn’t help but scream.

As soon as he saw that the look on my face didn’t look fake, he jerked his part out, which was no less torturous for me, as his part ground out on my dry channel as if he was trying to rip the walls of my intestines apart. I still felt the familiar cracking pain and even heard what sounded like silk cracking.

As soon as he flipped me over so that I was on my knees, before I could resist, he had lifted my hips up and plunged in again, lubricated by the blood, he didn’t push as hard as he had the previous time he came in, and he was all the way in at once.

He’d never made me bleed since he’d committed himself to learning about my sensitive spots. But this time, he had completely disregarded my feelings, just to get his emotions out.

He ejaculated very quickly due to the reason that he was so emotional. But it was only when I saw that he didn’t react that I realized that he had no intention of pulling out of his weakened part.

I squirmed again, “Let go of me, it’s time for enough, it’s time to be satisfied.”

“Satisfied?” He sneered, “I haven’t satisfied you yet? Lest you say I raped you again.”

“No, don’t!” I was even more panicked when I heard that, before, I was treating myself as an idiot, so I didn’t even think about my dignity, and now I was asked to accept a man’s caress as a normal person, how could I accept that?

With one palm he pressed my back to the ground, and then with his other hand he started to stimulate my hole, making me feel numb and itchy, and as expected, his parting slowly grew bigger inside my body, filling my inner chamber again.

After ejaculating once, he was much more subdued and began to play tricks, first shallowly withdrawing and probing, then suddenly coming in with a heavy thrust, this one directly hitting my prostate.

“ah ……” unable to restrain the moan at once declared in the mouth, only to feel a wave of heat from the top of the head straight through my body, too good, the whole body is trembling. Although I clenched my hands tightly, the pleasure could not be restrained no matter how much I tried.

He was also using this as a target for attack and went all out, trying to stimulate the prostate with every blow. I don’t need to see it to know that my parting has completely swollen up, and liquid is even starting to come out of the glans. I can’t, I really can’t take it anymore.

「唔……嗯，唔……」Hands have been bitten out of blood, and my mouth is full of rusty flavor, but that’s all that can’t bring down my heat. The parting swayed forward and backward with his pounding, getting bigger and bigger and bigger.

I can’t, I’m going to cum. This thought flashed through my mind, almost burying my whole fist into my mouth to suppress the gasp of pleasure, but Zhong Qing suddenly pinched my scrotum with his big hand, “ah ……” it hurt so much, immediately all the pleasure was dissipated by this pinch, I sucked in my breath in pain, and wanted to use my hand to cover my lower body to ease the pain, but he grabbed my hand in one go. I tried to cover my lower body with my hand to ease the pain, but he grabbed my hand right away.

“How’s it going? Do you want to cum? Then admit it, want me, want me to fuck you.” He said this harshly.

“No, I’d die before I’d say that.” I retorted between gasps.

“Good, then don’t blame me.” He sounded very grim.

He stopped his sprints, pressed his body fully against my back, and began hissing and biting at the nape of my neck, and he bit down so hard it made me feel as if I was being stalked by a vampire. Under the nibbling and biting, the pleasure gradually rose again.

I really hated this body of mine, completely in his hands. But he wanted me to beg him like a whore, dead.

Like last time, he stopped me again the moment I was about to ejaculate, if the male didn’t ejaculate then his pain wouldn’t be over and he let me struggle with myself in this pain.

Countless times I did the mental construction that I can’t beg him, I can’t die begging him. No matter how painful, just don’t beg him. After a few times of the same thing, I gradually fell into a coma, and he never heard my pleas for cymbals as he had hoped.

But the more he didn’t hear it, the more cruel he became. And the more I suffered, even my erections were getting shorter and shorter, and I was afraid that I would be impotent in the future under his torture. But even if I was sexually impotent for the rest of my life, I couldn’t beg him, I couldn’t act like a whore in front of him.

Finally I fainted and didn’t wake up again no matter what he did, I was just too tired. 在经历了暴打，经历了这么长时间的折磨后，我已经身心俱疲，让我睡吧。

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When I finally woke up, the wounds on my body had already been treated. Turning my head around, Zhong Qing’s face was gloomy in sitting by the window, looking at me.

If it was before, and I never got pleasure except for pain, I could indeed justifiably say that it was him who raped me, but just recently, in the midst of frequent sexual affairs between him and me, he had completely remodeled my body to become unfamiliar even to myself, making me feel horribly sensitive to my own body, and his exhalation in my ear could make my legs go weak, and his vicious sucking on the nape of my neck could send my blood straight to my head, and when he kisses me deeply, I can only surrender completely. So now with a body like this, how could I say he was raping me? What other reason could I have to say that? My own body has completely disobeyed my own will, no matter how unwilling my heart is, but as long as he caresses me lightly, as long as he stimulates me, I can make my own body completely obey him, this is simply raping myself.

Although after all, I didn’t say those words that made me feel ashamed as he wished, it was an indisputable fact that I could get pleasure on him myself. I really was in no position to say I was a victim anymore, and when the pleasure wasn’t one-sided, then the victim became an accomplice.

I looked at him sideways, hoping he would tell me the truth.

He looked into my begging eyes and didn’t let me down, telling me everything he knew.

The story he told me went over and over in my mind, was it true or not?

This is from twenty-five years ago, I was just one year old, my father was an orphan, after finishing college with great difficulty, he worked as a teacher in a middle school, my mother was a golden girl, just returned from abroad. Originally, the two of them are not related to each other, because of a car accident so that they know each other, the mother drove the father knocked down, and from then on the sky and thunder, the development of a sensational love, but the mother’s family how can accept such a neither the money nor the power of the boy it? After an uphill battle, the mother’s family gave up, but also since then disowned the daughter.

Life is hard, but still happy, but all of this was He Riyan spoiled, it turned out that the father and He Riyan are in the same orphanage grew up, although the relationship is very good, but because of the landlord of the orphanage to take back the orphanage must be immediately closed down, so they all left, at this time they are already 15 years old, and then only know He Riyan went to the police academy, and the father is also because of the part-time work, and also to The father had little time to contact him because he had to work and study at the same time, and they lost contact after a few rounds.

What my father never expected was that He Riyan would later become a gangster and make a name for himself. What he didn’t realize was that He Riyan was trying to find himself. It turned out that when he was in the orphanage, He Riyan had already fallen in love with my father, so when He Riyan found out that my father was already married and had a one-year-old son, he was so mad that he kidnapped my father, and my mother didn’t know what was going on at all. My mom didn’t even know what was going on and who had kidnapped her. Therefore, under this sudden change, my mother could only work and take care of me at the same time, and she put all her hopes on the police, hoping that the police could find my father.

He Riyan is very mean to take us mother and son to threaten my father, asked my father not to leave his side, but the long-term psychological depression, as well as the violent treatment, finally let my father fell ill, and found out that it is lung cancer, He Riyan want to hire the best doctors, with the best medicine, but my father simply give up the treatment, and only want to die quickly, his stubbornness makes He Riyan helpless, only to watch my father’s life bit by bit, disappearing, finally, he only let my fatherthetofather. disappeared, in the end, he only gave in and sent his father back to his mother’s side, and by this time, his father was already thin to the bone.

He arranged for his father to be hospitalized and gave his mother a large sum of money, but how could his mother want it? She looked at the culprit who had caused their husband and wife to be separated for as long as a year, and who had caused her husband to simply give up on his life after he had gotten sick, and really wanted to fight with him. Just thinking of her husband, thinking of her son, she still held back, even accepting He Riyan’s assistance in humiliation for the sake of her husband being able to live one more moment.

Father in the mother’s care, spent his last half a year, although He Riyan almost every day to see him, were turned away by the mother, but in the father’s last dying days, looking at his father’s eyes, looking at his eyes are always looking at the door, the mother finally knew that his father actually want to look at him again, she let He Riyan to come in to see his father for the last time.

He Riyan just grasped his father’s thin and bony hand tightly, sobbing, “I’m sorry …… for …… I’m sorry ……”

The father’s eyes penetrated a kind of peace, laboriously said, ” Forget it, I don’t blame you, you must treat Yi well in the future.”(Note: Lan Yu Yi is Zhong Qing’s mother)

Then he put his other hand back to hold his mother’s hand, and by this time his mother was already in tears, “Ling …… I …… love you …… can …… but I …… can’t …… anymore …… take care of… . you anymore.”

These were the last words spoken by my father, but I was only two years old when he died, and I don’t have the slightest memory of him at all. My mother was always in love with my father, so even later on she was indifferent in the face of many suitors, just hoping to bring herself up and be satisfied, and finally before I was able to fend for myself, I was already suffering from a hundred illnesses.

If Zhongqing hadn’t told me, I wouldn’t have known that my father had once spent a year away from my mother, who told me that all the memories of my father were good and happy.

But in Zhongqing’s memories, the role my father played in his life was the root of his pain. His mother was madly in love with He Riyan, even though she knew he loved a man, a very ordinary man, she didn’t give up, she thought she could bear it, but she still lost her balance under both of He Riyan’s attitudes. When she knew that her father had died of an illness, she thought that He Riyan could finally treat her well, and she spent three years to wait for He Ri Yan’s return and even gave her a child, only to realize that her existence and that of her son were still no match for a picture of her father, and she left He Ri Yan’s side with her son in a fit of anger.

She didn’t hide all this past from Zhong Qing and told him that she still loved He Ri Yan, even though she had left him. She hoped that Zhong Qing would take over the Green Gang and that He Ri Yan would forget the past and return to her for the sake of his son.

And Zhong Qing also joined the show business because he wanted to fulfill her mother’s long-cherished wish. Now that the anti-triad momentum is so high, if the Green Gang wants to continue to survive, they must be able to think of a way to bleach their name, and he used the money he used to make advertisements to open Zong Heng, and hosted it behind the scenes. Fortunately, his own appeal is also good, so this company will soon be able to start, and now many of the Green Gang’s subordinates have begun to serve in the entertainment company. And the clubs that the Green Gang used to run were modified by Zhong Qing, and became more popular among the public, especially this Mirage Colors, which was in line with today’s trend, and also satisfied the fetishistic requirements of the high-ranking officials, therefore, the actual Green Gang was now almost in Zhong Qing’s hands.

But it was because the person he had loved all his life turned out to be a homosexual, thus how could his mother accept that her son was a homosexual again? That’s why she had a relapse of her old illness after my report came out, and it even led to her current death.

If anything, Zhong Qing hates me because I broke his wish and caused his mother’s death, and did all sorts of cruel things to me, but then he put himself in pain because he loves me deeply again. He has been struggling with himself all the time, if he ever considered letting me go before, which is impossible for him now because it is impossible for him to accept me again, his father made his mother sad for the rest of her life because he fell in love with my father, and now he is in love with me again, if he accepts me again, then his mother won’t be able to forgive him in the nine springs of the earth.

As I finally went through all these causes and consequences in my head countless times, I wondered what Zhong Qing would do to me in the end. But I still needed to know how my mother was doing.

“How is my mom?” I asked anyway. It was the first time I had spoken since I woke up, and my voice was hoarse.

“Don’t worry, I can’t do anything to your mother, originally I just put your mother under house arrest in the youth gang, I didn’t expect to be escaped by your mother last week, it happened to be bumped into by dad, dad recognized your mother at a glance, that’s why he asked me to bring you there.”

“I can’t disobey what the old man said, but even if I let you go back, you won’t be able to get rid of me, don’t forget, those photos of you are still in my hands? So I think you should know what to do too?”

“What more do you want? What do you want me to do before you let me go?” I’m going crazy. Why won’t he let me go? Isn’t he in love with me? Why does he want to make me suffer?

“How do you know how I feel? Can I live happily with you after falling in love with a murderer who killed my own mother? What I’m going to do is simple, is that if I don’t have a good time, you don’t want to have a good time either.” The hatred coming from his bones left me at a loss for words.

“Will you stop saying that I am the one who killed your mother? To put it in perspective, wasn’t my father killed by your father? Then I have to take revenge too?” I really think he’s horribly paranoid.

“It’s best this way, this way, we’ll be entangled together for the rest of our lives.” He actually laughed.

Ah, why is this person so hard to understand.