Passive Voice - Chapter 21
Did it ……
Really did it ……
Got done ……
Really done ……
It’s not a dream……
Lu Yao carefully moved his body, but the sleeping man tightened his arms around him some more.
Thinking about that naked entanglement last night, Lu Yao felt like his entire skin was going to burn.
Being fiercely entered, he himself was still selling himself by twisting his waist to straddle Chu Zhi Han.
I’m crazy. I must be crazy.
Lu Yao buried her head under the covers. But was dug out by Chu Zhi Han who woke up, “You’re awake?”
“Uh-huh.”
“We did it. You still remember, right?”
“Uh-huh.”
“Let’s go out.”
“Huh?!”
“Lu Yao. I’m going to say this one last time, just one more time, listen up, I love you.”
“Oh ……”
“What does oh mean?”
“Oh means oh ah ……”
“Isn’t that a yes?”
“Chu Zhi Han ……” Lu Yao whispered, “That …… I don’t like men.”
Chu Zhi Han stayed for a moment, then rolled over and got out of bed, “You go.”
Walking to the bathroom door, Chu Zhi Han put one hand on the door, “I really don’t know how I can look at you, idiot.”
Being hated.
“You …… you let me think again ……”
Chu Zhi Han violently picked up the mouthwash in her hand and smashed it into the mirror, “Lu Yao, what the hell do you take me for?!”
The sound of the mirror shattering to the ground made Lu Yao snap out of it.
Yes, wanting Chu Zhi Han to be nice to him, wanting Chu Zhi Han to like him, even getting into bed, but still refusing to be with him. He himself hadn’t practiced Chu Zhi Han too much.
“I know …… I’ll leave right away.”
This time, I’m afraid that even friends, can’t be done.
Being blasted out in the morning by the man who had just made love, with a strong sense of discomfort in the rear. Lu Yao walking dead generally wandered around.
Actually, Chu Zhi Han wasn’t bad. He actually liked Chu Zhi Han. Liked it more than anyone else.
But really want to be together. He was not ready for that.
No matter how much he liked psychologically, no matter how much he fit physically.
There were some problems that had to be faced.
Like family, like society, like the kind of incompatibility that two people kind of put out there.
He was a more ordinary man. When facing Chu Zhi Han, it was inevitable that he would feel inferior to be a friend, let alone a lover.
But again, he liked it so much that he couldn’t.
One day can not be lost.
Now …… is really lost.
The remaining days of winter vacation Lu Yao are nestled in the home did not go out. His mom always asked him why he didn’t go out with Chu Zhihan. Lu Yao had to say that Chu Zhi Han was busy with work.
Now, just hearing the three words Chu Zhi Han made his heart ache so much that it was about to explode.
It was real, that place in the heart, pain.
That kind of tightly shrunken pain, completely different from the kind of sadness that could be dispatched by a few bottles of wine and a few packets of peanuts going down when he broke up with his girlfriend in the past.
A month ago Chu Zhihan was just a good friend to him. Now it is the person who makes him think about everything he does.
Watching TV will think of Chu Zhihan always accompany him to watch those boring commercial movies, while watching the side of the laugh; drinking coffee will think of Chu Zhihan always drink black coffee on an empty stomach, no matter how many times he warned him that this is not good for the stomach is to change; before going to bed at night began to miss Chu Zhihan will be bathed in baby shower gel, after washing the obedient and coquettish little baby a; dream is all the two have been together with those parts, even intense lovemaking, and even the two are together. Even the intense lovemaking.
When I couldn’t help but call again, I was told that the number you have dialed is out of service.
I don’t have the face to go to the door.
Knowing that Chu Zhi Han is there. But he didn’t have the courage to poke open the thin veil between the two.
He always passively accepted Chu Zhihan’s good. Passive acceptance of Chu Zhihan’s love. Passively accept Chu Zhihan give everything. Slowly became a matter of course.
So forgot how to take the initiative to care about that person.
That for him, the most important person.
The day before they went back, Lu Yao’s mom made a lot of pastries. Lu Yao’s mom made a lot of pastries for Lu Yao to take back to eat. She also left Chu Zhi Han’s share. She asked Lu Yao to send it to their home. She instructed that it must be delivered.
Lu Yao was somewhat secretly happy.
Apart from this. He really didn’t know what excuse he could use to find Chu Zhi Han again.
When he arrived at Chu Zhi Han’s door, he secretly brewed for another long time. It was hard to put on a good expression. Thinking that he must properly explain to Chu Zhi Han. When I was pressing the doorbell. But ran into the neighbor across the street coming back: “Are you looking for the owner of this house? He went back to work a few days ago.”
He left.
Surprisingly, he left without saying anything.
Only then did Lu Yao realize that he had really broken Chu Zhi Han’s heart.
